Sunday, February 22, 2009

I Wish

I were lying in Sam's bed at Oxy again, with the window open and the California sun beating on my outstretched arm. The air smelled so different that I knew I was far away from all of the bad people and that I was safe.

That I didn’t constantly struggle with my need to share everything.

That I ate better and had the energy to make myself eat better.

That I was capable of motivating myself about those things I consider the minutiae of life.

That I was capable of giving myself criticism and praise in equal doses.

1 comment:

Kate Stanley said...

So, perhaps you should be in California, dear girl. Or perhaps you should find the California in you.

Rather like Jani cultivating her "inner Barcelona."